One of the main characters in my book is based on a certain gentleman I lived with for a number of years. I haven't heard from him in a couple of years but, just recently, this past month, he contacted me on facebook. I wrote back and told him I was married with kids. I haven't heard from him since.
Needless to say, it brought back a lot of old memories and feelings. I had been madly in love with him at one point. That insane love of youth when nothing matters but the feeling you get when your with that person. It doesn't matter if he can pay your bills or like your mom or treat his own mom right or cook for you, be a good father and husband. What matters is the unbelievable high you get when you smell his scent. The electricity you feel when he touches you.You know he's all wrong for you, but that doesn't matter so long as your with him.
I had decided at one point to forsake children just to be with him. They was no way I would raise a child in that environment. It ultimately ended badly, of course. He left me for una maldita. An evil person. She did me a favor in the end trying to hurt me. Ha!
I love my life now. My life was too crazy before because of a crazy love. But it's done. You never stop loving the people you used to love, but you can definitely stop BEING IN LOVE. We had our time.
Sweet dreams my prince...
I had decided at one point to forsake children just to be with him. They was no way I would raise a child in that environment. It ultimately ended badly, of course. He left me for una maldita. An evil person. She did me a favor in the end trying to hurt me. Ha!
I love my life now. My life was too crazy before because of a crazy love. But it's done. You never stop loving the people you used to love, but you can definitely stop BEING IN LOVE. We had our time.
Sweet dreams my prince...
